I hesitated about writing this post because honestly I tend to use my blog as more storyboard for what's going on in our lives for family and friends that live far away to read. The more I've thought about it however, the more I feel that writing this post might help me get one step closer to coming to terms with the death of my close friend Heidi. As I sit here and type, the tears won't stop flowing because I still can't believe she is gone and I'm writing a blog post about it.
3 weeks ago today I found out my close friend and coworker Heidi was diagnosed with Leukemia, this came as a complete shock to everyone (especially since she had blood work done the month before for something unrelated and it came back normal). We found out two days later that she had a type of Leukemia that has a 95% cure rate was not expected to be life threatening. Despite the devastating news, we were all extremely hopeful and thought that nothing but the best would be her final outcome. She immediately started chemo and did everything in her power to as she said, "get an A+" when it came to following the regimen necessary in order to beat it. She finished her treatment one week later, however the following day developed an infection. Due to that infection her body went into septic shock and she passed away the following day.
Heidi has been part of my life since Day 1 of my teaching career. It was she that rallied others together to get my classroom ready when I was hired just two days before school started; it was she who was my beginning teacher support provider my first two years of my career......this time one year ago we were planning her wedding..... and now her memorial?!? I still just can't wrap my mind around it.
If I could talk to you Heidi I would tell you that not a day has gone by that I don't think about you. The past 12 days have been some of the hardest of my life. I miss my friend, my fellow teacher, my mentor... Teaching 2nd grade with you 2 years ago was one of the best years of my career so far. I'll miss your hugs, your infectious smile, your thoughtfulness....I took for granted your back rubs on our lunch break and thoughtful notes or little surprises in my box for Hannah. You were one of the most giving, caring, loving, amazing women I've ever had the pleasure to know. Going through your classroom today with Tracy, Mandy and Nancy to find pictures and memories of you for your service Friday was so difficult, it sent a flood of emotions through me once again. Saturday night at Ramona's annual end of summer dance party, I just kept waiting for you to show up "fashionably late" like you always do. What I would give for one more hug, to have one more laugh, a chance to give YOU a back rub..... I love you and miss you....
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| first year teaching ~Our 4th/5th grade teaching team |
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| Annual Walk-A-Thon |
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| One of our group Halloween costumes (the students always loved it when we did this) |
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| At the Asilomar conference grounds in Pacific Grove |
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| Team Evergreen ~Annual Bowling Event |
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| One of my last "Girls Dance Parties" with you |